Tuesday, November 25, 2014

#iamadventuring (or, Advent for Doubters)

It's been nearly three months since I said a word here, even longer since I posted regularly. Life happened, then pregnancy (boy #2 is due early April!), then a general disinterest in all things internet. I didn't do any of the things good bloggers are supposed to, like say that I was going or when I would be back, because I didn't know, and I still don't.

But I did want to stop by to tell you one thing, which is that Advent is coming. Last year my doubts weighed so heavily on me that I tried to get through the season without thinking of or noticing it. This year is different. This year I have the same old doubts but I am not afraid of them. This year I am admitting to myself that I like Advent, because I really really do. I've never been much of a Christmas day-Santa claus- red and green girl, but I love the tradition and the expectation and the liturgy and the simplicity of the advent season.

I love it so much that I had been plans to finish a now partially completed Advent e-course for the Doubters Anonymous community. But then, all the above things happened and I found myself entering a season of rest and real life presence, which I did not fight (maybe next year, dear e-course). I'm still in that season actually, so instead of doing the course, I've decided to just open myself up to the actual experience of Advent as much as possible, to give myself permission to enjoy this time of year, even thought I don't know what I believe, even though I don't always feel like I fit in with the notions of the season. I get to have Advent anyway. If that sounds up your alley, I'd love for you to join me.

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I'll be art journaling and listening to music and hanging greenery and sometimes even going to church. I'll also be going through this series of prompts and generally seeing what this season has for me. I'll be sharing my little advent experiments (for that is really how I see them) on instagram and twitter with the hashtags #iamadventuring and #doubtersanonymous. Feel free to do the same. I'd love to see what you're experiencing during this time as well. Wishing you the deepest longings of your heart this advent season.