I've been at this blogging thing (in its current, more intentional form) an entire year now. And I am continually astounded by how this space has evolved over that time. I began safely, with topics and posts that were polite and easy: recipes, a book review, learning to run a 5k, and a couple baby-related DIYs in the excitement of new motherhood. Some of these early posts you can't even find here now, as divergent as they are from the present mission (as I vaguely understand it) of this space. Then, eventually, I began writing the words that were then burning to get out of me, about birth, my struggle with breastfeeding, and our family's unexpected and painful experience in the NICU, because I couldn't not write them, because I would go crazy if I didn't.
Then, then, I stumbled upon an entire community of writers who were wrestling out loud with some of the same faith issues I had been struggling with. I found Deeper Story, which led me down a complete blogosphere rabbit hole, where I came across incredibly talented writers like Sarah Bessey and Addie Zierman and D.L Mayfield and on and on and on. Eventually, I got the courage to slowly, carefully, come out of the closet about the doubt I had been struggling with for the past five years. Somewhere around this point, I fell in love with writing for its own sake. That's when I decided to sign up for Elora's Story 101 course, which introduced me to some of the most courageous, feisty, poetic women I have ever had the honor of knowing. Joining that community was like a cannonball of brave to my heart. My words have been growing braver and braver ever since, and I haven't looked back.
Though it seems like a distant memory now, I remember a year ago, when I was typing away at simple little recipes as if I cared at all about cooking, telling myself that I would do this for a year, stay committed for a year, just to keep my hand in the writing game as a new mom. If it was still nothing by then, I could give it up. Well I certainly didn't stay committed to recipes, but I don't think I could pull myself away from this space and the community I've found through it if I tried. Which is why I went ahead and made some updates, because this blog and I are in it for the long haul, for better or worse.